A new adventure

For those that don’t know, I have bipolar disorder.  It can be quite crippling at times, but mostly it’s just annoying.  Like not being able to get that itch on your back annoying.  You can feel it there, but there’s absolutely nothing you can do about it.  Yeah…  That…

Well, my psychiatrist and I have decided now is a good time to start trying to decrease the dosages of the meds I’m on which is fantastic!  A few of the meds I’m on have some pretty nasty side effects, some of which do affect me, and if I can decrease the effect or even no longer take them, that would help immensely.  The only problem with this is that I essentially have to train my body to be relaxed and calm at all times.  Without medication.  So my doc gave me a few alternative treatments to try to help me along on this twisty-turny path.  One such treatment…


Yep.  Having someone stick little needles into different parts of my body in order to balance out my Qi (pronounced chi).  I’ve been doing it for two weeks now with one acupuncturist and I’ve felt a little better, but not great.  Not only that, but I have to leave work early at least two to three times a week to go to these appointments so my boss isn’t very happy.  I needed to find an acupuncturist with weekend hours.  Enter Dr. Lee.

I just had my first appointment with Dr. Lee today, and let me tell you, my first acupuncturist had no clue what he was doing.  Okay…maybe he had a clue, but it became obvious within the first ten minutes of my appointment with Dr. Lee that my first acupuncturist was cutting corners.  First of all, Dr. Lee spent at least a half hour asking me about my various health problems and history.  The first guy spent two minutes, if that.  Then Dr. Lee had me lay down and he thoroughly examined my entire body (clothed).  Guy number one…he pressed on my spine.  That’s it.  Dr. Lee used at least fifteen needles.  The first dude…seven.  But Dr. Lee is actually treating all of the health issues that popped up during his interview with me and dude #1 said he was just treating my stress.  Dr. Lee actually felt the area he was about to insert the needle in to make sure he had the proper positioning.  Dude #1 just put ’em right in.

For those of you who have never had acupuncture done but were curious about it, I’ll explain it to the best of my ability.  Essentially, the acupuncturist places needles as thin as a human hair into certain points of your body depending on the health issues you’re having.  It’s all based on Chinese medicine.  The most pain you feel is barely a pinch.  Then you’ll feel pressure as the acupuncturist positions the needle properly, but the pressure goes away.  After he’s done, he’ll leave you alone for about twenty minutes with the needles in place.  This is my favorite part–you have an excuse to just lay there and relax with the lights turned down and spa music playing gently in the background.  A mini vaca.

Once you’re done, he’ll come back in and take all the needles out.  No pain.  Very rarely you’ll bleed ever so slightly, but it’s practically nothing.  There may be a little bruising, though.  Nothing too serious.

It was at this time that dude #1 released me to pay and sent me on my way.  Dr. Lee, however, gave me a bottle of Chinese herbal tablets.  I had never heard of them, of course, but I figured eh…why not?  I made sure to check that they wouldn’t have any adverse effects with the medications I’m on (they don’t), shrugged my shoulders, and popped the Dr. Lee recommended dosage in my mouth.  I did a little internet research and surprisingly found excellent reviews for this particular variety of herbs.  I was shocked.  They’re for treating depression and anxiety and by the way people were talking, they’re God’s gift to the mentally unhealthy.  We’ll see.  I’m keeping an open mind.

Anyway, back to our guy #1 and Dr. Lee comparison…  I was completely exhausted within an hour after Dr. Lee’s session.  This hadn’t happened with guy #1 so I looked it up on the internet.  Apparently it’s an excellent sign that the acupuncture was successful.  It only lasts for one to three days so I’m not concerned that it’ll affect my life or work.  What I am concerned about is what guy #1 thought he was doing.  I’m glad acupuncture is covered by my insurance because I’m beginning to think that guy #1 was wasting my time.  I wasn’t too comfortable with him anyway because he never looked me in the eye when we were talking, and I literally saw him for about thirty seconds every time I went in for a session; long enough for him to put the needles in.  Then someone else would come in and remove them.  I was with Dr. Lee for the entire hour and a half I was there minus twenty minutes after he put the needles in.  I could tell I was Dr. Lee’s priority.  Dude #1…not so much.

According to Dr. Lee, I have a disordered spleen.  Seeing as I’m somewhat versed in western medicine, I began thinking “Oh crap.  Is this something I should be seeing a western physician for?”  Then I do some more research.  In Chinese medicine, when you have a disordered spleen, it’s more about the spirit than the physical.  Yes, your spleen has a spirit.  Who knew?  A disordered spleen can cause basically everything that’s wrong with my health at the moment:  worry and anxiety, poor blood circulation, and some other problems that I’m not going to talk about on the internet.  I was shocked again when I read all of this.  Is it coincidence that a disordered spleen happens to encompass every issue I’m having?  Or is there really something to this Chinese medicine?

Like I said, I’m keeping an open mind about all of this.  I want to record my experiences with alternative medicine during my journey to no meds so I’m going to use the blog to do this.  Not only did my doc recommend acupuncture, but she recommended meditation.  I’ve meditated before, but I never had an actual reason for doing it.  And I never kept up with it.  Later on this month I’ll be starting the meditation part, and I’ll let you all know how that goes.  I’ll be doing my next appointment with the great Dr. Lee on Tuesday.  Until then, if something weird happens, I’ll record it.  Otherwise, as the Chinese say…zài jiàn!  (See you again!)

Til my computer feels better

Hey all. So I hate to say it but the blog is going to have to be put on pause for a bit. I think the site is giving my computer viruses or something. I don’t know what’s going on. As soon as I figure it out, I’ll post again and you’ll know everything’s back the way it was. As for the blog story, I will post that on watt pad. For those of you not familiar with watt pad, it’s a website and app that allows writers to post their stories and novels for free for others to read. You may have to make an account to read my stuff but it’s free and as far as I know, they don’t sell your information. I’ve never had a problem. So, anyway, when I get a moment tonight, I’ll post the blog story on wattpad and we’ll go from there.

This sucks

There’s nothing like waking up in the morning, turning on the news, and seeing your husband fighting a two alarm fire.

I’ve never said my life was boring. Nor is my husband’s.

So from this point on (until I can figure out what’s wrong with my computer) I’m going to be blogging from an app on my phone, and it doesn’t allow me to do half as much as I’d like, but whatever.

If anyone knows why a laptop would become disconnected from the wifi multiple times for no reason at all and requiring a restart in order to reconnect and then having to do it all again two minutes later when it disconnects again…please let me know. Please. PLEASE.


I wanted to get this out here before I tell the world about my website. I have a few updates on the status of my book The Descendents: Unseen. First of all, it, along with it’s followers in the trilogy, are being put on hold. This whole writing and getting published thing is a learning process, and I’ve learned a lot just since finishing Unseen.

First of all, getting your first book as a new author published is difficult. If that first book is over 75000 words, it’s damn near impossible. Unseen is 100000 words. I think it’s safe to say it won’t be published as my first book. I could lop off 25000 words, but then it wouldn’t be the same book. I also spoke to my test readers, and they said the same thing.

Second, I’ve been reading a gazillion books on writing fiction, and I can’t tell you how many elementary mistakes I made in the structure of that book. Basically, it needs to be cut, chopped, pieces put where other pieces were, and glued back together. All in all, a very time consuming process, and one I’m not going to start until it’s required.

Lastly, and most important, I have been working feverishly on a new book, one that will be 75000 words. I’m not going to say much about it, but I will say that it’s looking like it’ll be a thriller/mystery type novel. I’m very excited about this one because the content isn’t stuff I’ve dealt with before so I’ve had to do a lot of research and such to make sure all of my facts are straight. The characters are amazing, lots of conflict, which is what makes a work of fiction work. Currently, I’m still in the development and outlining stage, but I’ve started typing up some scenes so it won’t be too long until I’m writing feverishly.

I’ll make sure I keep updating this website as things change and whatnot. I also plan on doing some general interest blogging on this site–just strange and funny happenings in the life of me, not that I’m that interesting, but it’s my damn website, and I’ll do whatever the hell I wanna do so deal with it. No one’s forcing you to stay here. My day job, well, day/night/every third day job is a paramedic, and I run across all sorts of interesting crap while dealing with the public so I’ll make sure to post some of that fun stuff. All posts will be categorized to make things easier to find so if you decide hearing about my author stuff isn’t your thing and you only wanna hear how silly the general public is, then my paramedical posts will be under their own category.

If there’s anything you guys want to hear about that I haven’t posted about, please let me know. I’m pretty open as long as it’s not my credit card number, bank account info, or underwear size.

Thanks all!